Thursday, June 10

STRESS WILL NOT EAT ME ALIVE....

O.k. so this week was really maniacal. All my projects are due at school at once, I had a huge garage sale to sell off my stuff because I am moving at the end of the month, and oh yeah, did I mention I am moving at the end of the month?across the country? I
cried everyday at least twice. Thank God my CAD teacher grew up with sisters and he just talked through the tears until I could re-focus. I have learned a lot about my coping mechanisms..more importantly, that I HAVE coping mechanisms...When I was a young woman, and I thought the World owed me something, I could get almost anyone to so anything for me. I am not saying that to brag. I mean that my coping mechanism at that time in my life was to sweet talk someone else into doing my dirty work, and I though that was how the world functioned. Not here in this reality. In this reality I am responsible for everything I do and say. I trouble shoot for myself, I dig up the resources to deal with it all. I can do it. I am strong. I wasn't before. I didn't have the self confidence to look inside and find it..mostly because back then it just wasn't there.

2 comments:

Lorena said...

Hope all goes well.
I am glad you were able to figure that you are able to do things. That you do not depend on others.
I see people making others do stuff for them all the time.
It makes me upset that they do and I get more upset with those who do the things for them, I do not think it is fair.
I do not wish evil on anyone but I would like to see when those that do stuff for them are no longer around...

J. le Roux said...

thank you for your feedback!