SO MANY THINGS....

well I have been on a whirlwind tour of my life lately.....went to Colorado and stayed in a Hermitage for two weeks alone, started my last year of school, fell in Love. I have a new computer now too which is a dream. I am planning on moving to Toronto in June of 2010, the boy if from there and I have a better chance of getting an awesome design job there, it's only a little more cutting edge than Victoria!!! ha ha ha....more later.......

MOVING FORWARD

things have been buisy and hard these past few weeks. I have been very tired.
I moved, which is great. I am still getting used to the sounds and smells of the new place...where the hell did all the huge black flies come from? was the Devil living here before and forgot to clean up the body? Being on this side of the building has been amazing..It's like a totally different building altogether! so quiet! I have been working alot and I was excepted to go to Nada in the Colorado Mountains for two weeks..I am going mid August. It should be interesting..to say the least! out there in the middle of nature with nothing but the hermatige and the wide open world.

THINGS ARE SETTLING DOWN..

I have found a cheaper place to live, just across the hall! I should say it found me. I have my wonderful Father to thank for some more financial help, so I will not suffer for my second year of school. I feel more at peace now than I have in a while. I'm o.k.

AAKKK

so this week I am feeling a little less frazzled. I am going to move July 1st, just across the hall, so something to look forward to. School is coming to a close soon and I have a trip to Seattle to look forward to. Thank God, Dad has agreed to co-sign for more credit for me to live on while I tackle my second year. I hope that I can be a little more organized this year coming up, and maybe get some more painting and art done as well as my studies.

TRYING A NEW CHAPTER

This picture of Frida Kahlo is so achingly beautiful. She is so regal and confident about herself, I find it inspiring. I am struggling for inspiration these days, having done a great painting and then started another that is not so great I can't seem to see past what it looks like now to what I could do to it to change the look. I might have to white it out and start again. SIGH. School is plodding along..I am finding it increasingly difficult to stay with the program! I do sound like I am complaining alot these days, which I hardly ever do, but I am not really right in the head right now so it has to go somewhere! It's not like I feel crazy or dramatic or anything, I just feel there is something not"RIGHT" about my life. I think that I am not patient when it comes to me and myself in regards to the fact that yeah, I have a broken heart, yeah I have had the same job for 8 years, yeah I hate my apartment and understanding what it is that I can change to help myself and my situation.