Monday, September 22

And So It Goes...

So we decided we were going to do this. But we really hadn't figured out how. That November I got a call from B's brother. As a surprise he wanted to fly me out to Toronto for Christmas! He also stipulated that it must remain a secret. That was very hard for me, as I love to tell people good news. By the time the flight date arrived I was ready to gnaw my own arm off, rather than spill the beans! i told B that he should call me on Monday as usual and that I had a few errands to run but should be around. His brother told him they needed him down at the studio work space for help with something and his partner and good friend said they had a maintenance window to do and could he come down to the office....Well I managed not to tell him, but when he called a few times and realized I had been incommunicado for hours and hours and his two closest people had two different stories as to why he MUST be at a said location, he put two and two together. But it was a lovely reunion, and a wonderful Christmas with lots of snow, food and family...

Thursday, September 11

Here We Go...

So that was that. I knew I wanted to be with him and he with me. There was just the problem of where we were going to live and when. Shortly after the four days with B at his cottage, I flew to Crestone, Colorado to live at a hermitage for two weeks! here. That is a whole other post that I may talk about one day, but for the sake of our tale, I will truncate. Every day I would ride the donation bike from the my little cabin in the desert beside the Carmelite Monastery, to the town of Crestone, to use the one pay phone in existence there to call B and say hi. I missed him. Even though we hadn't been together in the same place for longer than four days, I missed him. So we'd chat, I'd get groceries, ride back to my private spot in the desert and think. Alot. We would have music dates, where we would pick an album, and a time and both listen to it in our respective comfortable seats. Miles apart, but together in spirit. Our favourites were Viva la Vida (coldplay) and Agaetis Byrjun (Sigur Ros)...I knew we had to decide what was what. I was terrified, but I was hopeful.

Thursday, September 4

The Next Step...

When I contacted B, I didn't know what kind of reaction I was going to get, after all it had been almost 10 years since we had parted ways and we had only seen each two other times after our falling out. Much to my delight and surprise he called me on the phone almost immediately. We chatted. It was a good chat, one of those chats that fills in all the feelings of missing that person. We were friends again. He had just come back from living in Paris for the last 3 years, he was single and now living in Toronto. I was having a long distance relationship with a fellow from Saskatchewan and had plans to move there after I graduated from Architectural Interior Design school....We continued chatting once in a while, and I must admit things were getting flirty, and as my long distance relationship dissolved, I felt like something might be happening between me and B.

It was kind of a problem. Not only was I totally not interested in having another failed long distance thing, I couldn't move there as I was in school!
So then I had an idea, you see I had to know if this was a real thing, look at him in the eye, touch him, smell him, search his face for the signs. It was a tuesday that i called him and it went something like this:

Me: Are you sitting down? I have something to tell you and I really think you should be sitting for this.

B: ok. Is it bad? should I be worried?

Me: No, no it's not bad..are you sitting yet?

B: Ok, I'm out on the patio and I'm sitting.

Me: I'm going to be at the Toronto airport on Monday...

B: Wait..what? Where are you going?

Me: What do you mean where am I going?

B: I mean are you flying somewhere? Why are you going to be at the airport?

Me: No silly I'm coming to see you! Pick me up!

Anyway, I decided on a whim to go visit B for 4 days on my reading break. I made the right decision. when I got off the plane and came down the walkway, B was looking at the other door and I could look at him in profile for a full minuet before he noticed me coming towards him...It was awesome, he looked exactly the same, and when we hugged he smelled exactly the same. I felt like I had come home.